I feel pretty disappointed and very let down right now. Just shy of a year since my first breakdown. My scores are all, still, marked as severe – probably worse right now – and yet because I was too anxious to continue a group that wasn’t helping me/making me worse; I’m discharged. I tried, I really tried the group. Longer than friends expected of me! Heck – if anyone knows the raisin mindfulness task; I couldn’t even eat the dam raisin. I tried contacting 3 times and now I’m discharged. I feel like I’m screaming out for help. I am slowly withdrawing and whilst I’m aware of it I can’t seem to stop. I can’t seem to engage with society. I don’t know how much longer I can carry on and I currently am NOT glad that “it’s me and not someone else struggling” because I can’t do this anymore. It’s impossible; if you are not severely ill you will not get the help. I don’t look underweight, I haven’t tried to kill myself, and I’ve not been submitted to hospital for self harm; thus I’m fine, right?